03 March 2011
i didn't went to track & field meets today. stayed at home and i'm feeling much better today. apparently i didn't attend sch for the past three days and swear i missed out so many lessons/test. i hate being sick 'cus this is what i get. it sucks alot. i'm coming tmrw but i'll be lost. 50 told me there's CIP tmrw and another 50 told me normal lessons will be held. which is which? i'm so confused:( i should've forced myself to attend sch. haish. its been long since i last heard frm Bay. where is he? why isn't he online? why isn't he updating my blog? :( where are you then??? hmph. so i was having breakfast when Only One was on air. i ended up in my bedroom in tears. idk why. that song. that meaningful song. it meant so much to me. afta five months moving on why am i still crying listening to it? why Only One? why not the songs he dedicated to me? why not the songs we always sing together? why is it Only one? :'( yes i've moved on and i'm pretty sure he's not meant for me. Thaqif♥'s my past. will forever stay that way. yes it will. Allah pls gimme the strength to keep holding on. i know this is gonna take some time to heal. why am i so weak today? whatsup with me? :/ ugh wtv it is i'm strong. and my mom always told me i'm the strongest person she knew. insya'allah i am:') was suppose to meet Sufian. but .... it's okeh bro. i understand. there's always tmrw. i love you still♥. idk what to do now. maybe i should go back to doing that thing i do best. SLEEP! hehhh. it hasn't been raining for a month or so and now its raining heavily. ahhhh heaven:) aftanoon ppl. & i miss Shahrul Indra♥ pls? :'(Labels: goodbye 09April2009.
