idk why. it really tears me up. but thanks to fatlazypiggy who was here and still here for me. thank god i heard from you at last. i've been waiting for your text. when i saw your name appeared on my online list, i was so happy. really. it's okay, i understand why weren't you there for me for the past few days. i'm not angry or whatsoever. i was almost giving up but you gave me the strength. i thank Allah for sending me you, baby. i'm sorry that i can't turn in early today. i just can't go to bed with tears running down my cheeks. one afta one bad news. hais.. i don't wanna lose my dearest nephew now. Arry, you've gotta recover soon pls. aunty can't take it anymore. why did you hafta go through all of this? why are there holes in your heart? why not mine?!?! :'( ugh. why does life makes it hard for me to live? why do people i love are suffering? i wanna faint & i'm not recovering. Allah, pls give me strength to go on life this way. why did i hafta go through this path? aku tak bole tahan lagi, ya Allah. :'(