02 December 2010
still remember how you used to kiss my forehead when i was about to break down. you used to hug me from the back when i was lost to show that you've got my back and i'm not alone. still remember those words you said till i get butterflies in my stomach ;i love you & no other but you. i could still feel your fingers fit in between mine and your skin touches mine. i used to hug you like the picture above there. & you would say "I love your scent. It still lingers around me thou' when you're not around." how could you be my everything and end up my nothing? how could you gimme those sweet words and end up tearing me apart with words like ;i love you but ... ? damn i find it hard to forget those hurtful things you did that hurts my feelings. i used to cry a bucket, slashed my pretty wrist and now it's ugly. i used to knock my head on the wall so hard hoping that i would lost every memory i had with you. i used to throw my phone on the wall when i receive no texts or calls from you. i threw my tantrums & i was a bad girl. BUT. it's different now. i learned to get over everything. thinking back to the days, you're a mistake that i learnt. you're that something which happened for a reason. you're a test i went through. thank you for showing me life. :)
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ... ex broke up with Namera. was it good or was it bad? should i be happy or should i be sad? should i say "SERVE YOU RIGHT MOFO." or should i say "I pity you."? wtv it is, nothing matters to me. i didn't lose anything & i'm happy for it. ain't gonna stay up late tonight 'cus i'mma jog with ma girls tomorrow morning. ^^ goodnight, xoxo.
Labels: life was totally different after you.
