18 December 2010
Bay♥, you're all that matters to me now.
i'm sorry for always mentioning his name. i'm trying not to. bear in my mind, he's nothing to me. even you can learn from the things he did that hurt my feelings so you won't do the same. yknow how much i hate him now yknow the reasons why. i'm trying my best to avoid him. pls try to understand. :( i don't wanna hurt you & i'm trying not to. 'cus i do fear of losing a guy so deary like you. swear it's true. it's so amazing how you would change my entire life & made me realize that the world doesn't only revolves around one guy, or should i say a jerk. you're the reason why i'm so much happier now. you had never failed to complete my days. that's what makes you special in my life. :) nothing could change the fact that I Love You Forever & Beyond. i don't even want you to be like him. i was stupid. he wasn't the guy i wanted him to be but i was so motherfcking frigging stupid for staying strong with him. bay♥, i won't mention his name anymore. if i do, be mad at me. scold me all you want. i could take that 'cus it's my fault. i rest assure you that nothing could make me turn back in time with him. don't you fear. i promise. i love you beyond measures, Shahrul Indra. ♥
i hurt bay♥. & i'm disappointed with myself. how can i do that when all he did was to complete my days? i'm trying my best to forget the past for the sake of bay♥'s happiness. i can't be so selfish to always think abt my own feelings & ignored his's. bay♥, i will change. gimme some time okay? i know i will 'cus now i've got you. & only you. :) it's 03:08am & i'm shedding a tear. damn i hate myself afta realizing that i've hurt bay♥'s feelings. soooo not gonna forgive myself for that. :'( BAY♥, I'M SORRY & I MEAN IT. gonna go to bed soon 'cus i've gotta wake up early tomorrow. will be going to sentosa with dearest ex-tpsians! awwwwww it's been sucha VERY LONG time i hadn't seen their faces around. glad that i'll getta meet my primaryhusband tomorrow, Adzhar Shah♥. 25 more days till you discharged from the hostel. tu lah pandai sangat kan curi motor. teranjang kau pls. best eh one year duk dlm hostel. suke tenguk aku nangis mase kau masok hostel? HAHA tolong jangan bhuat lagi okay! hopefully everything turns out well tomorrow. Dan♥ & Ram♥, mentang mentang aku ade $58 suke eh korang. AKU CUME TAMBAH MANE YANG TAK CUKOP AJE, BUKAN BELANJE KORANG! :D what's friends are for? you guys helped me when i'm in need. now that you guys are lack of money, i'll help to add up some okay. gonna meet 'em people at 12:30 tomorrow. woooo ~ i'm so excited! i had an interesting convo with Dan♥ justnow ;
Dan : *reads my blog.* Siape ahhhh Shahrul Indra? MEMBER DAH ADE BOY AH.
Me : HAHAHA! Belom jadi lagi. Soon lah soon. Doakan okay?
Dan : Yes ofcourse aku akan doakan! Handsome mcm aku tak ?
Me : Tak. Handsome mcm Aamir Khan.
Dan : Perangai mcmne?
Me : Perangai handsome.
Dan : Okay aku suke. Pi kalau perangai mcm tu jantankeparat (ex), aku sumpah kau takkan dpt matae selama tujuh keturunan aku.
Me : Aku lebih rela mati.
Dan : HAHAHA! Tak lah. Pi aku bet Indra ni seribu kali ganda lagi bergune dari jantankeparat tu. Lastlong okay!
Me : AMIN. Hehe, okay insya'allah.
gile kau aku takle dpt matae selame tujuh keturunan kau. HAHA! Bestiebaby♥'s accompanying me now. glad that he's able to stay up late. ^^ love'ya like a brotha, Hanis♥ ! :) currently watching Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak 2 for the 3rd time & never gets bored watching it. :D goodnight, xoxo.
Bila hati sudah melekat, taik kuching pun rasa coklat.
Numba one numba two, ada hantu kita tunggu!
I love you forever & beyond measures, Shahrul Indra. ♥
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