19 November 2010
i've lost my two best people ever in my life ; Sufian Cuteboy & HDR.
believe it or not, yeah i've lost them. so that's their motive actually. they mistook me for leaving them behind for Amir Irfinity. hell no, i didn't. but they just won't listen to my explanations. both are already giving me cold shoulders. i didn't expect everything to happen this way. i didn't want our friendship/love to end up here. there's just so many things we've gotta do together. there's so many days ahead we've gotta spend together. i want us to stay like how we used to be. takmu pahsal Amir Irfinity, korang pk aku sanggup lupekan korang uh. when thaqif left and gave me hard times, you guys were there for me. tell me how can i ever leave you guys behind? why did you hafta think that i will ever leave you 'cus of him? I CAN'T. & Sufian, i had never neglected you. i'm sorry if this's the very first time. i'm very sorry. HDR, i didn't abandon you. but you did. you're always not making time for us, always busy with your own stuffs. i waited for your calls everyday without fail. but i didn't receive any for the past few days. & d'yknow how i felt? i didn't call you 'cus i know you find it irritating for me to keep calling you. yeah i know who i am. you're only making use of me. like what thaqif did. best kan bhuat pakai org? you're not what i thought you were. sorry if i m.i.a-ed for a very long time. firstly, don't blame Amir Irfinity abt this. he's not in the wrong. we're friends, that's it. secondly, i was warded. HDR, you used to know everything. but since you started to drift away from me & stopped caring, you didn't know where i was or even dead or alive. i fainted last monday. warded in the hospital till wednesday. & yes, i found out i had kidney failure. yay to me. *clap hands. so now, i have brain tumor & kidney failure. happy now? :) i won't live longer. which means, there won't be me who have been neglecting you guys. i just wanna say thank you for always being there with me through ups & downs. thank you for every sweet lil' memories we've crafted together. infact, thank you for everything. you guys were the reason why i'm much stronger now. if i'm no longer around one day, don't worry be happy. okay? i love you both, very very very much. *hugs & kisses. takecare. goodbye. :'(
Labels: i swear this is the hardest thing to do 'cus i still love you both.
