24 November 2010
what if you received a call from her parents that she's already gone on her birthday when you were about to wish her? deep inside, you're breaking down knowing that your heart was still big for her. you're already feeling guilty for all the things you've done, all the hurts you've caused. she's the girl who you can't seem to forget, hard to let go. she's the girl who puts up with your attitude every single day. she's the one who wiped your tears when you cried, the one who kissed your forehead before you leave her doorstep. she's the one who sacrificed so much for you, made you her first priority. she's the reason why your parents see the change in you. she's the one who turned you into a better person now, the one who put up that smile upon your face every morning with just a simple goodmorning text. the one who holds your hand everytime you're mad. she was there all the time without fail just to be with you. but in the end, you left her for someone else after one year six months. you made her wait for a month. you're the reason why her pillow's wet every night. she broke down almost everyday. she was hoping for you to come back, for you to change the situation that's killing her slowly. but she guessed she hoped too much, it just didn't happen. you're better off with a "barbie" rather than a girl. you're better off with a girl you've just known rather than a girl who've been with you almost half of your life. & when she's gone, you started realizing everything. you started missing her like how you used to. you broke down & cry but your tears can't bring her back. she left a note on her bed with a photo of you and her back then. a note that says ; I'm here. Still waiting for you, where have you been? I'm so cold down here, been all alone the whole time. I've been waiting for your texts & your calls. Am I that easy to forget? 'Cus I've been running out of things to get you off my mind. I accidentally took a knife and stabbed my heart. Yknow, it hurts alot. It hurts 'cus i can feel my heart breaking like shattered glasses. I found myself lying on the floor tryna call you. Your name was the last word I said before i closed my eyes. But dude, I can still see you from up above. I know you're breaking down now but I'm sorry. I can't reach out for you anymore. I'm way up here, too far to get to you. Stay strong, will you? "En Ai En Eee Eh Pee Arr Ai El To Zero Zero En Ai En Ee."
basically, there's nothing for me to do. it's always the same old thing. was suppose to meet someone justnow, but great. it was last minute cancelled. went to sch, took my coursework & went off home. dang today's sucha bee oh arr ai en gee day. i just can't find anything better to do rather than fb, blog & tumblr. fml. no one's texting me. wait till my prepaid's low, then i'll receive tons of msgs & you'll blame me for not telling you that my prepaid's not loaded yet. fck you. -'- i'm soooo freaking omg fcking shit hungry. tskkkkkkk. no one's chatting, no one's awesome today. THERE GOES MY WEDNESDAY, FCK YOU MAN. kbye.
Labels: she better be good to you 'cus if she doesn't i'll be there.
