02 November 2010
so lost. so confused. so down. what am i suppose to do? thaqif & i texted justnow. we had sucha great conversation. oh well. not really great 'cus he did make me cry. so basically. he started a conversation abt a song. Sayang Maafkan Aku by Isa. that's the song he's referring to i think? he told me to listen to it. okay so fine. i heard it. & yes thaqif, i ever dedicate that song to you. but you told me that song was so slow & boring. you eventually dislike it. how come now then you wanna talk abt that song? meaningful isn't it? doesn't that reflects on what you did to me? :) i hope you realized somehow. i feel so bad. i hurt ♥B.Love 'cus of my bloody moodswings. i was so angry yet so sad at the same time. it's like my emotions are controlling over me. i can't handle it anymore.ove ♥B.Love has always been there for me. & i thank you so much b. but i just don't fcking deserve you. i've been hurting you with my burdens, get you involved in everything. how can you stay? :/ guys would've left me for that. why don't you leave me alone? i find you just one in a million, ♥B.Love. you've always been. that's one of the reasons why i loved you. nyehehe. i understand why you're always not here for me. don't worry. abt me thinking of us drifting apart, ignore it okay? i just felt that way. & that was yesterday so don't bother too much ayte? i know we're gonna have our time soon. i wanna sit next to you, talk shits out. cry on your shoulders and hear you say "dahdah.. shh shh..". hahahaha! you're so cute baby. i wanna hug you so badly x] but now, help me will you? push me hard on the wall till my head bleeds. bring me to the hospital & taa-daa! i'll lose my fcking memory. so i don't hafta remember what happened before that. i know it's stupid. i would wanna try that some day. hahaha! so now, it's 04:00am. yes still not asleep yet. having a great chat with Sufian Cuteboy. nyehhhhh he's always here for me. every day every second every minute every hour. thank you cuteboy. :) aku syg kau lah buto. okay he just called me a 'sick freak'. WTH IAN! kick your sexy pantat then yknow. pfffffft ~ ppl who visits my fb ; i know i've been posting jiwang songs. eh org tgh heartbroken okay. paham paham kan je lah eh? takde kene mengene nhan korang pon. itu antare aku nhan Ellyboo sahaje. :] i'm off to bed already. goodmorning, ppl. xoxo.
I love ♥B.Love very much, more than that ;]
" I'm better than your girls before me, better than the girls you're dating. I'm better than your girlfriend, infact I'm better than your future wife. " -Ellyboo bby. <3
" I'm better than your girls before me, better than the girls you're dating. I'm better than your girlfriend, infact I'm better than your future wife. " -Ellyboo bby. <3
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