13 October 2010
that's what you did to me, thaqif. sumpah, till now. i can't get over you when i'm supposed to. when can i move on? why are you still the only one? :'( what's gonna happen to me if i keep waiting for you to come back? will i ever get you back anyway? :/ neh, i can't be so sure. why didn't you realize? these shits are killing me deep dowwwwn. to be honest, i'm still concerned abt you. i wanna know where were you, i wanna know how are you doing. i wanna know if at this point of time, are you thinking abt me too? 'cus i am. i wonder if i ever crossed your mind, 'cus it happens to me all the time. i'm not pleading you to come back. all i want is, keep to your promises. i don't wanna be your biggest mistake. i'm still keeping mine. my mind is never at ease everytime i lay down on my bed with your jacket in my arms. still smells just like you :') i wonder when can i ever feel your arms around me again. does it have to take a lifetime? i really hope not. thaqif, you're my beloved and yknow that. i know you do. you & i, we've gone through so much together. you said you won't let me go through whatever. you said you're gonna keep fighting for me. but where are you now? it's already been five days i didn't see you around. i wish i could and i would wanna hug you tightly without letting go if i would. hopeless hopes :/ i still keep your sweet text messages, though. our beautiful pictures, damn good ol' times. haha i can never forget them. how you used to show me your stupid yet cute cheeky face when i said something so dramatic. how you'd frown everytime i said i lost my hope. how you'd keep asking me "b, kenape ni? okay tak syg?" when i'm down. how you'd hug me on my waist from the back and whispered "b, i love you." I MISS THOSE GOOD TIMES. i had never meant to start a war, yknow i never wanna lose you. i don't even know what we're fighting for, why does love always feel like a battlefield? i miss how we used to be, thaqif. i really do. and if you think i didn't care abt the numba nine, yknow i do. where is our "anisthaqif, happily ever after" ? :'( i'm going for the operation on Saturday. before i go. I Love You, Muhd Thaqif Bin Abdul Khalim. how i wished you would never leave. He knows that where you are, is where i should be too. xoxo. <3
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